The Defense Mechanism

at the back of my mind, i don't really think this will go anywhere further.

i have an instinct that the feeling, even if it's mutual, won't develop deeper, or as deep as i want it to.

i can see another heartbreak coming my way.

but i won't give up on any any chance to make it work.
even if what i perceive is only a glimmer of hope.

i'll pursue it. until i know for real, that it's not going to happen.

for at least i could sleep better at night, knowing that i've tried my hardest.
that i'm not a mere quitter.

i really do hope this will work out.

i like you very much.
lets get to know each other better.
and learn about each other.

even if it does not go our way,
at least we have a fond memory.
of you and i,
of us :)

until i see you again,
take care babe.

You..

when can i hug you, kiss you.

to feel the warmth of your body.

i just want to be with you.

and let the time stand still.

just you in my arms, and me in yours.


we shall meet again.

:)

how weird is this;

i had a short weekend,
but it was full fulling,
and the moon is gorgeous tonight.
just gorgeous. beyond word.



it's like a sign.

but am i reading it too deep?

i want to do it different this time. i hope i do it different this time.

rightly different.

for the better.

pray for me.

and tomorrow is a new day.

Interesting Night

had an interesting date last night.

Ok, i prefer not to call it a date. more of a 'meeting'.

nothing romantic about it. just a casual outing.

and i had fun!

apart from the fact that i had to wait nearly 45 mins before we met, of which i spent reading a book from the writer of Marley & Me (interesting book, but too much on the Catholicism for my liking, or i have bought it).

we went to dinner, then to a movie (star trek is a good movie) and ended the night hanging out at a joint in bangsar, having a couple of drinks and goofing around talking about ourselves.

i went home with a smile on my face.

thank you for an interesting night :)